"I have no idea what's going on..."

^^ my reaction during football game lol.

So yesterday i took Krissy and myself to Jens house for a "football party". It was suppose to be a get together to watch the Giants game, eat food and just catch up with friends. The giants were losing badly and like no one was paying attention so everyone was just kinda talkin in small groups and eating and wat not and it was niceee. Denisse wanted to see the tree but most of us were too lazy to go so Jen said we could stay at her crib while her Denisse, Justin K, and Eliza went to see the tree. We agreed, except they def came back 5-6 hours later lmao. so we were goin crazy tryin to think of shit to do in da house...oh man funny shit smh.. but it was fun. i def love my friends od. and Aura got me Watchmen for xmas like she had promised and a manga adaption of a James Patterson novel and hes like one of my fav authors and i love magna. so jea Aura is def the BEST. haha.

I currently have no plans for tomorrow but might hit up Josmel or Lauren, since Jos is only gonna be in NY till Sunday and i wanna see Lauren before this break creeps by. i shall see!

i love bush!

Darlene,Jea9,Josie <3

Daphne,Krissy,Justin,Aura,Juan,Jordan <333

A post full of pictures

Soo I am offically on winter break!! i am still waiting for two of my grades so ill let u know them later =]

uhm first day of break Krissy and Nyke came over and we just chilled a bit.

second day of break went to the city with Krissy, Justin, and Juan and just walked around catchin up and having some mickey d's. Juan had to go so me Krissy and Justin went and did some Hookah, and Justins roommate with his cousin passed by to say hi, he seems really cool. uhm den just went home and chilled Ramon and Krissy ordered dominos at like 1am. smfh.

Xmas Eve consisted of family coming over, getting fat, drinkin, and listenin to music. And seeing my favorite cousin Tammy for the first time since fuckin January SMFH.

^^ u see that cute lil boy!! lol

uhm i then oovooed with Lauren one of my middle school best friends for abut 3 hours just catchin up, i had REALLY missed her. Def a good way to spend xmas morning at like 3am lmao.

i hope everyone enjoyed their christmas!

new years next!

My Two Favorite Baboons

I HAD MISSED THEM

AND I LOVE THEM

<3

Dear Dakota,

A year ago today you left us. By your own choice. I didnt really know you, i was just able to point u out in da hallways and had heard one or two crazy stories involving you. But boy did i shed tears for you at the memorial assembly, at graduation, and last night at the start of this day when i went thru your baby pics that your mother put up for others to view on this day. You looked SOO happy and picture after picture all i could see was love between you and your parents. Your friends miss you SOOO much, you dont understand how many hearts broke a year ago when the news was given. I still remember math class that day. math 8th pd with mrs robertson was always loud and crazy. Eva always up to something. But not that day...Eva couldnt even stay in school she was soo shook so heartbroken, that math pd we were terribly quiet no one talking. we got thru a whole lesson for the first time, and mrs robertson just looks at us and simply asks "are u guys ok?" and of course we were not. no one responded. the rest of that week and even the following week the senior class seemed so dead...teachers were also different. no work was given to us. Jen the clown of the group, the jokester, looking the saddest i have everrr seen her, she misses you oh so much. those days were so hard for her, none of us knew wat to do, we just didnt. It hurt to see so many of my friends crying and i just didnt kno wat to do. and even i cried after that assembly i rmr crying to Juan and him takin me to class and it being like 10 mins before i was able to go in. and to think i didnt even kno you. or how after everyone walked across the stage at graduation we all stood and watched your parents walk across for you, your mother crying her eyes out. it was like wow. and to think that Dakota you were just the first of four deaths we would go through senior year. And that i would soon after see all my beloved Juniors at the time be heartbroken. but wat still gets to me is dat unlike Josh and Jordin, your death was self inflicted, you WANTED to die. You, a kid who seemed to have loving parents, friends, had gotten into the college of your choice wanted to end your life in such a brutal way. it blows my mind...that you could blow yours....Maybe you wanted to be something greater because of your death you changed the lives of many such as myself that you might not have been able to do otherwise. And your death def brought the class of 09 together and made us a lil tighter as a whole. But somehow i feel it just wasnt worth it. Not when i think back to those crying faces, and to that empty feeling. I just really hope your happy where you are now. I really do.

RIP

You were such a beautiful baby.

*edit*

I just looked through your memorial page now to finish wat i had started at midnight and there was sooo much to you, its so clear to see that you were gonna be something great. i wont not lie i always thought u were a bit odd but after reading some of your work and hearing all these stories i feel like you were one of those people that i will forever look for to just sit down and have a real conversation with. i got around to talking to people i never had before during senior year. why didnt u give me a chance to meet you?

R.I.P Abuelo

Never met you, or spoke to you. Pero hey wouldnt be here without you.

<3

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

So ive been in a MUCH better mood lately =D, probably cuz ive been talking to friends and making plans for break. LAST CLASS OF THE SEMESTER WAS FRIDAY !!!

Friday was a goood day, last class, went to Auras house for a bit and played with her dog, went to NYU to see Kamrun and Craig, pigged out at an NYU dining hall, went and did hookah with them in st marks for the first time-it was cool will do it again but not often, then me and Kamrun went to Bx Sci to watch the play but got there super late and missed Pimento and Cindys parts =[,though i know they did AMAZING. Oh and we sat in front of Shamuir and crew and uhm they of course were super high smh but their added commentary to the play were tooo funny some annoying but some funnyyyy lol. But jea i should def be working on my music paper right now or studying for that math final i have tomorrow at 8am -_______-

The next week will consist of studying, test taking, and possibly a bit of chilling?

wateverrr fun times are to come!

Just Here.

So im laying in bed and have a million thoughts running through my head and i realize that im not happy nor sad. Im just here. And this makes me miss certain people terribly. I have alot of good friends but right about now im really missing Juan and Elena. Juan who i can eventually tell everything to and loves me no matter what, the one who upsets only because i love him so much. Elena who i can tell anything to and no matter her view on it stands by me and the one who never fails to cheer me up. I said in my last post i wanted new people in my life but right about now some old ones sound nice. Im only gettin by these days cuz i have people like Aura, Zhen,Nick, Pimento, Unsha, and etc to talk to. But without God and friends like Juan and Elena closeby things arent as great as they can be. I also miss the friendship i use to have with Ric way back when. But ahh this post sounds mad emo and im actually not this sad lol im actually quite happy that i will hopefully be spending time with my friends and eventually starting a new hopefully exciting term. Also wanna pick up some hobbies. Ok im done just felt like blogging. Time to get sleep so i wont be tired during lecture with Aura and Jimmy jam tomorrow.

Moving Along.

I havent written in this in a while...not cause i havent had the time just hadnt really felt like it.

Uhm what to say? the semester is over in about two weeks and then its finals and im quite happy about that even if i dont have tons of fun during break i can use some time to myself. oh homecoming was this past wed, it wasnt that great but it was nice seeing people after so long, and for some for the last time ever lol.

So ive come to realize you cant always keep people in your life, and sometimes ur just not suppose to. For the most part ive tried to keep in touch with my 09ers and even people still at science, but u kno what it gets tiring. so ima just let what happens, happen. i will make a

FEW exceptions but eventually that will end too. so its time to let the old fade away and make room for the new.

The World is black

"Vidi is cool"-Nick

So when i woke up this morning and the whole way to school i felt so blah i couldnt even muster a smile. But once i got to school i def felt better and was joking with friends and wat not. Anyways this weekend i was speaking to Chris who was in Arizona at a research conf and he has motivated me to start looking into forensic psychogy research programs- jjay has one but for grad students lol so my search goes on lol. I also intend on starting to learm how to play the piano i will probably ask for a keyboard for xmas and start learning to play on youtube haha. I will also finally get my permit even though im quite scared of driving. And after talking to Dan and Chris it is clear i need to get involve in some after school activities next semester so ill look in to joining DSA like i was suppose to and possibly this charity like club. All these lil things i must do to keep myself busy and hopefully make myself happy lol. Ive also decided to start writing letters to my friends who are away at college, the first person on my list is my sunshine Kim! i miss her terribly and i have her school address cause its on the postcard she sent me wen she first left for school. so yay for me getting interesting mail in the future.

Now i know i can be quite random in my blogs but i feel like discussing the video i watched in my Latinos class today. It had to with the sugar plantations in the Dominican Republic and the Haitians working in them, and how horrible the living conditions were for them and how they were treated and all this horrible stuff. Now i agree that it was horrible but what someone wouldnt know from just watching the video is that alot of Dominicans live in just as bad condtions. Like my parents just came back from DR and my mom was telling me how when they went to visit my dads half bro she saw how my lil cousins were sleeping in such bad conditions. Apparently the boys bed is like half his size so he sleeps folded up on a mattress with no sheets and his two sisters sleep on one fold up bed also without sheets. and they live in una casa de cin(tin roof shack type thing) like if the Dominican government cant take care of its own how can u expect it to worry about the illegal Haitians that come to work in the fields. So jea the problems in the world are just sad and pretty much out of our hands smh. fuck the world. these problems arent gonna be solved anytime soon. but jea maybe if i do join the peace corps ill just do the service in DR where i can truly relate to the people. idk. whatever

tell me what i'm supposed to do with all these leftover feelings of you.

La vida no puede ser un carnival siempre ...

Currently: Watching Marley & Me...def makes me want babies/puppies in my life haha

Uhhh the yankees won the world series on wed night and it kinda made my life..for a lil bit anyways lol. I also passed by the parade today i didnt really get to enjoy it cause i had to go late cause i had a psych test in the morning. But it was def nice feeling the New York and Yankee pride in the air.. everyone was goin crazy...hopefully we can win again soon and i can really enjoy the parade then.

So this week was def not a school going week for me LOL..i decided to take wednesday off and missed math on thur smh idk wat was up with me. and then again today outta no where i got mad down again pero i have no reason to be so, so idk que el problema es. i feel like somethings missing but idk wat it could be hmmm oh well... this wknd i have lots to do and i reallly been unfocused lately so im hoping tomorrow i can change that cause if i dont get focus by this wknd my life is gonna pretty much fall into pieces school wise and then from there its all down hill. My parents are also coming back tomorrow night so thats cool though i must admit ill kinda miss my abuelita i should probably visit her more often. but i am lookin forward to my parents coming back with dominican dulces and cheese for me =D

i feel like alot of this post sounds very ehh. but it all will be good...i hope.

shirt i bought today at parade =]

ps this is my 27th post...coool.

Rambling

am i awake...

i can actually barely keep my eyes open.

i miss guy biffles! but ive been speakin to Nick, Angel, and Nelson today.

and Nicks coming down to see Aura manana so ill probably see him.

and Angel is coming down in like 2 weeks and he shall come see me <3

and me and Nelson shall plan our trip to boston.

blah blah blah

psych test friday fuck fuck fuck

lecture tomorrow

fuck fuck fuck

itouch is dead

damn

tireddd

miss my parents but spoke to them today =]

hopefully see my godmother and baby godbro and sis thur ..babies in my life! .....Pimento! =P

and lunch with Bonet, Chris and Aura next week!

oh and i got a 98 on music midterm and 94 on ethics one...yay me?

and that is how my mind works wen im tired =]

adios

I aint gonna live forever...

... I just wanna live while im alive

hmm what to write abouttt....i guess i should probably warn whoever is reading this that this could end up being a really long post lol.

So friday morning my parents went buh bye and left to DR for a week and my abuela came to stay with me and Ramon. I was feeling tired possibly cause i decided to NOT take benadryl to fall asleep because i fear ima get hooked thus i was awake half the night..because of that i decided to not go to class and had me a nice breakfast instead. then i headed out to the city met up with Aura where we walked around central park den walked to school because we had to meet up with Topaz and Jimmy to go to peer advisement. oh and looks like me and Aura will have 4 out of 5 classes together next semester LMAO hopefully we wont kill each other. Speaking of next semester... its def gonna be a diff schedule from this semester... on monday and wed ill only have sociology ...and at 8:15 am...MAD EARLY....tue is gonna be horrible... Eng at 9:40 Speech at 11:05 and a Health like class at 12:30...no breaks...thur i have speech and the health class....and den friday i have eng at 9:40 a break and den a double stat class from 12:30-3:10 def do not know how i feel about the schedule BUT i did choose it lol WATEVER its good to mix up my schedules so i can figure out wat works best for me. Everyday the end of the semester seems closer and it makes me super happpy cause i want that break so bad and want to see my friends again after so long but also puts me on a bit of edge cause it also means that deadlines are approaching SOON. So just gotta end the semester good and then i can relax, have fun and get ready for wat looks like a HARD next term.

Hmmm so i know my last posts sounded very downish and im not any happier but im def fine...lol the yankees winning tonight while i ooveed with Aura and Daphne def helpedd, uhm im still not back on facebook haha ohh and i def plan on reading my Bible again soon and it actually makes me happy thinking about it.

anyways i dont think i have much more to say just hope whoever is reading this had a nice Halloween, and i hope the Yankees win again tomorrow and dat i continue getting some work done!!

Heres a cool pic Aura took of me on friday at what is like one of my fav spots in central park:

Sometimes i feel like...

... I dont have a purpose.

So im def writing this from my itouch lol because just downloaded this blogger app :) anyways im quite upset that the yankees lost and not only that but they lost badly smh. I shoulda done my long ass math hwk instead of watchin that game. Anyways im actually not looking forward to this weekend at all ill only be happy with it if i get work and studying done nd maybe watch greek,oth,and slumdog millionaire lol. Uhm im def addicted to facebook but i passed day one. This blog post is pointless just cant sleep and testing out the app. Not any happier with life and dont see it happening anytime soon.

Unhappy...taking a break from the World.

So recently i realized that ive become quite bored and unhappy with life. Now dont get me wrong theres nothing bad going on right now, all is well...but boring...i am not satisfied with this boring routine i am living. I must be goin thru one of my "emo" phases...eh they happen unfourtanely im not at bronx science anymore with friends that go out of their way to cheer me up aka make me feel guilty cause theyre tryin so hard that i HAVE to feel better lol. Anyways i feel like i need a minor break from the world. Im gonna hit people up a bit less though if they hit me up i will most likely respond, i just deactivated my facebook for a bit(hah lets see how long i last this time Pimento) im also going to try to not spend so much time on Aim or at least go on invisible most of the time =P...i plan on using the extra time im bound to have getting ahead in my school work, reading, and getting back in touch with my religious side...maybe ill go back to church soon? I sure hope so. Not sure how long this will last but hey if anybody really misses me they have my number and like i said if people hit me up ill probably respond..maybe...w/e

and ill try to keep updating my blog to keep Ric and whoever else actually reads this updated on my life...

adios

YANKEES BABY!!!!!

So havent updated lately cause not too much going on in life right now but uhm YANKEES GOING TO THE WORLD SERIES BITCHSSS!!!!!

AROD I FUCKIN LOVE YOU AND YES YES YES

ps my new obsession is Glee...and guess whose singing the national anthem at the third world series game...GLEE CAST....tooo good.

mets fan...red sox fans....other haters..WHERE YA AT?!? ha bitches.

that is all.

Toy Story

Ok so this weekend wasnt as great as it was suppose to be ....but it wasnt horrible...i didnt get all my work done but i did get some done...i did not see Josie or even talk to her this wknd...uh oh...i also didnt see Zhen but thats her fault haha...the best part of my wknd was def today...i went to see toy story double feature in 3D with Aura,Nick, and JT. It was fun but the Commute was annoying and it was so brick and only Nick was dressed right for the weather smh. Oh and since we came late we missed the 12oclock showin and had to wait for the 340 one we killed time by goin to toysrus and a halloween store and eating, while at the halloween store some doucheass worker was tellin us to leave and shit nigga can SMD real hard and choke and die. kthanks. Anyways toy story is the shit def gotta go see toy story 3 when it comes out in June lol. Anyways gonna go make plans to see paranormal activity with Claudia for next weekend(todays her bday btw =]) and then im def callin it a nightttt.

that is all.

p.s. Ric wtf are u? i need u back for those random middle of the night texts =/

Ya No Quiero Acordarme De Nada...

Wow so I don't even know where to start but lately my mind has been going crazy. Recalling random memories, good-bad, happy-sad, also I've been thinking about the future and ahhhh my brain is about to EXPLODE. Sometimes I feel like idk wtf to do with myself LOL. grrr its like idk how to feel about...life.

The only thing truly going on in my life right now is school. Which I think I'm good with, im aiming for 3.5 gpa but i def havent been working as hard as i can but def plan on changin that immediately as in RIGHT NOW...plus i can use something to distract me. But im def not failing anything, and unlike my first week there wen i was like "I HAVE NO FRIENDS" I do have friends I have Aura obv and Stephanie and this lil crew with them and Topaz,Marta,Jimmy and April. Plus in my music class i have my buddies, Yance,Diana, and Janel and if it werent for them I would probably be extremelyyyy bored in that class. But im pretty sure Yance kinda likes me and that kinda bothers me LOL, maybe ill get into that later in this post or maybe not. But i honestly can't believe how FAST these days past honestly its kinda od, it makes me a bit happy cause things that im lookin forward to come quick but kinda scary at the same time. like im an adult WTF HAHA. Ive also been appreciating my parents alot more since ive entered college and thats helping motivate me to do well and go make something out of my damn self. i must admit there are some days i wished i was dorming not cause im dying to get out of my house but just cause its an experience and a sneak peek at the future, but of course theres the days that i love coming home to a home cooked dinner, wake up to breakfast, take my parents money to get food and go to school and wander the city with that prepaid unlimited metro =D

Ive also done a pretty good job in keeping in touch with my friends via Aim,Video Chats, and texting even though we all tend to be busy these days PLUS alot of people are coming home for the weekend and theres no school monday so i shall be chilling with a couple of people Sunday and Monday and that makes me super happy... i now have a reason to go and charge my freakin camera. But at the same time i think im gonna stop tryin so hard to keep in touch with people... i know it makes no sense im pretty sure whoever bothers to read this whole blog post is goin to be like "wtf this shit made no sense"....yea i kno SMD. Anyways im probably temporarily or permanently cutting people out of my life..slowly...quickly...with and without warnings. watevs.

hmm what else is on this retarded mind of mine... Oh i kinda want a boyfriend but dont think ill be able to commit to one. fml. i think this is enough nonsense for one blog...

hopefully i will write again at the end of the weekend, with tales of how productive i was and about the great time i had with friends and how im ready to tackle another week of school...

adios.

Spanish songs

Como se lo explico al corazón?

Bed bugs, Alma Mater, Max Brenner

So the end of last week was pretty interesting... Wed we ae informed by our Latino studies teacher that the first floor has bed bugs and we should avoid it. later durin break we planMartas escape plan...and realize that the the tuscan cafe in westport is so much more affordable then the pizza spot. Thur morning i come in at 9:30 because i have a psych study after rushin to North Hall cause i was late i get there to be handed a letter by a guard sayin that north hall will be closed till tuesday cause bed bugs were found on the second and third floors as

well...thus my morning study, math class, and afternoon study were all canceled...and i didnt have class till 1:55 in t building....so after ventin out to Aura via phone i go home to et and sleep. Later on, on my way back to school for my music class, this random boy named Benjamin starts talkin to me on the train and hes a fellow freshie at jjay and walked with me to school just chattin..so uh i have a new friend now? lol he def found me on fb too.....and i got a email from Tagged which is this site i havent used since freshie yr sayin HE had messaged me there too cause apparently he uses that...weird....i hope hes not a creeper or ill get my music buddy Yance on him since hes a jjay securtiy guard =]

SOOO cause of the bed bugs my friday class and studies were also canceled so i decided it was a good chance to go visit my loves at bronx science =] now i was very happy to see my loves but it was extremely weird being at bx sci after graduating so i dont know if ill be visiting again(aside from home coming) BUT def want to chill wit my loves outside of bx sci =]

9th pd Jea9 came through cause she was going to Sean's Bday get together(even

though it was def Unsha's bday yday and she was goin to this get together) and last min i ended up going too and it was quitee fun, we went to Max Brenners where me and Kristina split the most amazing mac and cheese and chocolate and marshmellow crepe ahh soo goood like i fed some of the crepe to Unsha and she had an orgasm in her mouth lmao. then we buggged out in the park being crazy kids playing games, racing and pic whoring =]. best day everrr. i got to be wit some of my fav people at once-Cindy,Pimento,Nelson,Unsha,Kristina,Jea9 and some of former juniors. Now all i have to look forward to is school work and sinus problems -____-

that is all until next time.

i wanna scream i love you from the top of my lungs...

...but im afraid someone else will hear me.

So this past wknd was pretty good, friday i didnt have class so i got my hair washed, eye brows done and spent the evening at my abuelas house just chilling and getting some goood food. Saturday was a bum day just stayed home..did some reading(both for school nd for fun) and did some cleaning. Sunday aka yesterday i took a trip over to the heights to see my bestie ELENA cause she was home for the wknd, also got to see Chris,Mauri,Claudia,Alejo,etc etc lol. it was cool i missed the Villar clan. Today was a decent day of classes except this week looks like its gonna be busy or if it isnt busy it means im slacking which is no good. and im like getting sick or/and my allergies are od acting up right now so i kinda feel like CRAP... SO ima end this post and go lay down and hope i feel better...

sigh

i think i fell,

fml.

Cause I promised...

So Ricardo has been complaining about me not updating this..so here we go...

So ive been in college for like two weeks now? and i cant even lie i def miss Bronx Science BUT i also kinda enjoy college though it seems a bit routine but then again thats how most of life will probably end up being. Im getting more use to it each day, ive met some people and have people i already know so its pretty chill. i like my classes and so far am ok with the work, got my first quiz back today from music and i got a 104 so thats a good start lol. still need to learn how to skate. i think im gettin sick and that sucks. hmm dont have much to say really. oh yea, im loving Jay Z's blueprint 3 album. i of course love empire state of mind. new york <3. but the young forever song is my fav, it really stands out to me, i think its cause i feel like im starting my future and though its a bit exciting its also a bit scary and i will def miss the past. watevs lol. OH and rhythm city is no longer on ABDC =[ they def should be though but im still mad proud of Denzel and miss that kid dearly.

Cindy and Pimento if ya read this- ya need to update ur blogs so wen i dont have a chance to talk to ya i can still know wat ya up to cause i love and miss ya <3

thats all. happy Ricardo? LOL <3

Changes

TODAY WAS MY FIRST DAY OF COLLEGE!!!!

I only have one class on fridays though so it wasnt overwhelming or anything. So i had psychology today and i def think its gonna be my fav class this semester- the teachers are nice and one of them is esp chill, the way our grades will be broken up seems pretty straight forward...i have lecture with Aura and shes across the hall for recitation jeap sounds like good stufff...hopefully the rest of my classes are also good and that i like my teachers.

so today was a pretty epic day for a good number of my friends because it was also their first day of college or they moved in or left the state to prepare to move in tomorrow. Zhen moved in this morning and seems to be doin fine spoke to her on da phone and via chat =] and Elena is movin in tomorrow also spoke to her today on video chat hopefully we keep all this communication goin through out the semester. def going to try my best to keep in touch with everyone..but im slowly but surely adapting to this change and tryin to make it work for me.

hopefully everything goes well these upcoming months...

RECAP

So i have all these days i want to write about but ive been so lazy so now i must write about all these days in one..not for you but for myself so i can look back and read this and remember it all.

On thursday i went to ELENAS house!! well first i went to this sushi place next to her crib with her and nicole but i pretty much watched them eat cause i def dont fux with that sushi shitt. Then went to her cribo and saw Chris and Marui and was just chillinggg and Angel and Dan came thru which was awesome cause i missed them and theyre both leaving this thursday for college. So yea had a good time playin cards with mi abuelos(Elena y Mauri) and Mauri made some slammin food lol. But jea ima miss Elena,Angel and Dan esp Elena cause dats my bitch and i love her od...remind again..wtf said college was amazing? lol.

Friday i was suppose to go to Six Flags with Aura and her family but i was def sleeping smh...but i did go buy myself a pair of skates!! whooo now i must learn how to skate... lol

Saturday i got MY MACBOOK PRO WHOOOOO and the itouch but yes this laptop is my fuckin baby im soo in love with it like od its ridic ahhh love it love it love it

Sunday i chilled? oh and Juan left for college...i miss him =[

Monday aka yesterday met up with Jeanine in union square ran into UNSHA and her friend..we ended up stalking the Gossip Girl cast..then Jen came and we walked to chelsea piers cuz Jeanine wanted to see where it was and stuff lol smh LOSER =P

Today was my jjay orientation. which was madd lame and pointless. But ran into my homie Arianna who is also goin there and got to chill with her and stuff which was good cause i hadnt seen her in MADDDD long and we is cool peeps ya know lol. So jea STILL NOT excited for college in fact currently talkin to Nikaboo about how sad we are..though i like westport building...and Haarden has drink machines with Naked Juice...anyways idk ill come to blog about thoughts and shit later just wanted a recap of my days to read back in da future...

oh and mad love to Cindy and Pimento for listenin to me complain about college and shit ALL summer lol

Oldies but Goldies

Sooo on wed, i had a lil middle school reunion!!! And i had a great time, Rebecca, Marisa,Craig, Josmel, Nyoka, Rosyln, and Danielle met up at the Unos on 86th and had lunch together and just talked about teachers we didnt like, how messed up we were and other good old memories. Also talked about where we were going to college and how cool it is that Denzel is on ABDC lol. After we went to Karaoke and that was also madd fun. Love them kids, im glad after four years we can still meet up and just chill like the old days =D Def have to have more reunions hopefully with Denzel and Lauren there next time! Oh and its funny cause Elena had invited me to have lunch with her and Hana at the same time as my reunion..down the block from the Unos! lmao i ran into them on my way there and they came into da Unos later on to say bye that was quite a awkward/funny/cute moment.

Oh and not only are my middle school friends awesome so are my HS friends...i found out like 2 days ago from Ramon that Bushra had been calling him because she forgot to wish me a happy bday and felt so bad that she was planning to come all the way to my house with Aura and bring a cake and ballons etc but i kept makin plans and she has all this stuff to do b4 college so its not happening but i think its really cute that she would do all that cause happy belated apparently isnt enough? smh gotta love bush =]

A day in the park

So on monday i met up with Cruz, Flood & Greg. We went to central park where we relaxed and talked. Afterwards we went to kingsbridge and got subway..and i got my subway card whooo. Its nice being able to see Greg who graduated in 07 it gives me a lil hope that i will keep in touch wit my 09 friends..i already miss them...

(i like da pic ignore my mom and friend. lol)

oh yeaa

On my bday i saw Milly on the train and it made my day i love that women she was my lunch lady fr 4 years but she was like family...ima miss her soooo much.

oh and on da way home from governors island we saw Nishi on da train.


k bye!

If it kills me...

...^ that song has been stuck in my head..cause all i really wanna do is love you...

So these past few days all I've really been doing is chillin in the casa with Krissy, Nyke and the bro. Its been cool, Krissy leaves to FL tonight...ima miss her but she'll be back in winter =D

So yesterday was such a fun day. Went to Governors island with Aura,Chris,Bonetface(his sis and cuz) Jendejesus(her siblings and her sis's friend) and Bonetface's friend Wayne and Waynes gf LOL. But it was awesome, my first time going to Governors and i loved it, the bike riding was so nice and peaceful since we were right by the river, and it was fun being on da swings, da picnic area is nice and mini golf was funn, unfourtanely we couldnt go kayaking cause the boat house that supplies the boats werent there yesterday =/ well theres always next timee cause im def goin again( Ricardo we outtt lol). But jea it was nice to get out and just chill with friends and meet new people too.

Uh my dad paid my tuition and fees this morning..so now just need to buy my textbooks...like asap and im SET for stupid college which starts in 12 days -__-

so i currently can smell myself and i smell like soap lol...OH i got the rumor 2 on like thursday and i love ittt and bought this pretty canteen dat Aura and Jen were hating on and that Ricardo is trying to call a regular ol' bottle PSH.

got a whole bunch of plans for this upcoming week including a elementary/middle school reunion so def lookin forward to this week!

But jea ima go back to listenin to music and wait for Nyke to get here so we can watch Denzel on ABDC tonight!!! oh yea my home boy Denzel is on ABDC....RHYTHM CITY!! if you guys watch ABDC please vote for them!! Im so proud of Denzel love that kid he was like my big bro back in the day.

Im outtttt

Being 18 is all about...

Motts Apple Juice, Carel Ice Cream Cake, and The Land Before Time.


So yesterday(August 8) i turned 18!!! Now i didnt do anything crazy or whatever but i enjoyed myself quite a bit. When i first woke up yesterday i had the bday blues and didnt wanna get out of bed(haha Pimento) but eventually i did and came to the conclusion that i wanted to go to queens. Thus me and Krissy ended up going to Queens and meeting up with Aura to play pool. Now i suck at pool but i had me a good time. Then me and Krissy came back to my house and met up with my family and Nyke to go to my favorite restaurant SAMMYS. Had a good time there getting my rib on and just chatting. Then back to my house for some ice cream cake and chilage. good bday. Def wished i coulda seen some of my other besties like the Colons, Juan,Nick,Cindy,Elena,Wifey,Kim,Pimento,Kamrun,Jea9...etc but hey cant complain.

Def tryin to see people this week and not bum at home the whole time. LOL

and yea dont have much to say i guess....oh well...blah.

hi Ricardo.

Cause its about time...

...and cause Johnny keeps asking me lol.


Well first an update on my life....Last Thursday went to the city with Jeanine and we ended up in Jens hood so we hit her up and the three of us head back to times square and eat at Bubba Gump..which is quite a nifty restaurant except for the fact that its BIG on shrimp(obv) and i happen to love shrimp BUT am allergic to it...smh...and then we just chilled around. good shit.
Yesterday was even MORE fun...met up with NIKABOO and walked around central park then Jeanine and CINDY came! and we walked through mud and other unpleasentries in da park lol and ended up in carajo land. We found our way to a papa johns where we had so many issues smh. Then Ted came through and we ended up all in his crib. And eventually we went home lol. But jea i had a good time with my loves =]]

AND KRISSY is coming tonight thus she will be here for my birthday!! which happens to be in two days...or if you want the exact countdown you"ll have to ask Momo cause hes already been counting down-lovess him! I still have NO idea what I'm doing for my bday thus im probaly gonna do nothing but uh chill? lol watevs all i really want is a CARVEL ICE CREAM CAKE!! So if i get that i will be pretty happy. I am sad that the COLONS wont be here though =[ stupid FL stealing my friends.

But jea life has been pretty chill lately just bumming at home or chillin with friends. i dig it. waiting for college to start....but it can def take its time getting here. i just want my imac to be fixed and also want my macbook pro and itouch and all we be wonderful =]


oh and like my dream said...fuck him LMAO... ha ha if u dont know wat im talkin about den u dont need to know.

outttt.

Religion,Family, and Best Friends...

aka my friday, saturday and sunday.

Friday
So friday night I attended this concert with my mother at lehman college featuring this nun from Chile named Hermana Glenda...and i must say i enjoyed this concert very much, the nun sang beautifully and was QUITE humorus. For her last song(not including the encore she was begged for) she made everyone stand up and hold hands with the person next to them, the only person next to me was my madre pero this chick in front of me also had a free hand so she grabbed mine. It reminded me of when we say the our father in mass ...so jea i need some Jesus in my life..so uh mass next weekend? maybeeee

Saturday
So the first half of this day i spent at the City Island Yacht Club with a bunch of Puerto Ricans and Irish people though i only knew the Ricans lol. It was my baby godsister baptism reception she has now join a elite group of indviduals known as CATHOLICS....what what. anyways had a quite pleasant time there...and will possibly be going on melvins boat on the hudson and jumpin into the water later on this summer?! sounds pretty awesome to me. The next part of my day was spent at a family memembers house welcoming my aunt/cousin person who is here for the first time from DR. It was quite interesting hearing everyone talk about stuff back in DR since they are all from the same lil town...sometimes i wish i grew up in a town like Bonano where we identified people by how many kids they had and little intimate things i find it cool and makes me wonder how my parents feel about living in NYC where its completely different from where they were raised...CRAZY...I ended up leaving that and goin to my abuelas house up the block...where my abuela told me she aint scare of no streets...mi abuela is gangsta u best to believe! and she gave me chips and mad malta india =]] and i counted how many pics she had of me in her living room...TEN..of my brother? three...nuff said LMAO...but jea she love me she cant deny it, she put it on display!


Sunday aka Today
Today i hung out with Juan for the first time in a long time! Since he may end up reading thing i should speak kindly of him..lmao but nah i was planning to anyway. So jea i love that kid even though he can go MIA someimtes smh...You know there may be alot of stupid quizes and applications on facebook, but all those apps that say hes my real best friend forever are right! so juancito if your reading this I LOVE YOU. But jea we went to the museum of natural history and checked out all the exhibitions and the gift shop, caught a bite to eat at subways, sat down and talked for a bit, checked out stuff at Urban Outfitters and walked down to times square where we just chilled and watched people give free hugs lol. Had a good time ima miss him when he leaves for college =/

ok im doneee
this is one of those posts im not sure has any point to it...but den again its not like anyone else has to read this if they do its their choiceee.

do you have the time...

to listen to me whine about everything and nothing all at once?


i made my college schedule today!! for some reason that makes me really excited though i am not all that excited about college at the moment. i guess you can say i dont take change too well, especially expected change. How does that make sense? well if your expecting something you have a long time to think about it and possibly dread it...but anyways what i do like about my schedule is that my only class on friday ends at 10:55 am and my first class on monday doesnt start till 12:30 thus i can enjoy my weekends(when i'm not studying of course haha) and do things like chillax and visit da bestie Elena in DC! or visit the stony heads...niiiice.


This weekend is looking somewhat promising...a spanish nun concert tomorrow night with the madre at lehman college...that should be uh interesting....LOL....baby godsis baptism..YAY FOR MORE CATHOLICS...and welcoming an Aunt coming to the US for the first time..YAY MORE DOMINICANS IN THE COUNTRY...and i am suppose to spend the day with the old bestie JUAN! who ive unfourtanely grown apart from since the start of second semester senior year smh. Hopefully we can chill a bit before he goes off to college cause if not we may not keep in too much while hes away and that would really suck =[

so earlier today i was talkin to Zhen about how i went to jjay today on aim and she says
Zhen: I feel bad for you cause no one there will be as amazing as your bx science friends

Now she was just trying to be funny because she is one of these bx science friends but the thing is shes probaly right and that actually SUCKS....in case u can't tell i already miss my friends alot. cause ima huge punk with a big heart..go figure.

i will hopefully be chilling with some of these friends next week AND possible elementary-middle school reunion...which will be awesome...cause i hate how much i grew apart from my middle school friends(except Nyoka..love you nyke!)
like today on the bus i saw Laurens mom...now lauren is an old really good friend of mine had this been like freshman year i would have probaly sat down next to her mom and had a whole convo...today i decided to quickly make my way past her and sit at the back of the bus....i also saw nykes bro on this same bus ride...now him i DID say hi to lol. Its crazy to think the people you were once so close to don't even cross your mind anymore or people who u knew inside and out you dont know squat about smh. Makes you wonder whats the point of even getting to know people..but then again me and Nyke are still friends..hmmm i guess u dont know whose gonna last until u try it...

wow if i let myself i can rant about pretty much anything..thats just the type of mood i am...now that its stopped raining and it seems so peaceful outside i wish i could go down and sit in da new playground in front of my building....or take a bike ride around the block..of course if i did this and my mom woke up she would freak out LMAO...but one can only wish....


P.S. Shout out to Pimento cause shes pretty much been my nigga this whole summer <3

Fail of a day...and a useless post

I wasn't planing on updating this everyday BUT, i have nothing else to do right now...kinda sorta SUCKS. whatever

SOOO today i was maybe gonna go chill with Ric and then meet up with Kamrun and go to the Museum of Natural History(can u believe Kamrun has NEVER been there?! smh) but none of this happened. Dont really think Ric wanted to chill anyway so thats whatever not putting too much caring into dat....i was really lookin forward to the museum though =[ hadnt been there in forever..def takin a rain check on that.

So i called my grandparents in DR and had a nice lil chat with my abuela...i really miss her and that would be the only thing that could get me out to DR anytime soon...yes despite how much i love being Dominican I'm in no rush to go to DR for long pd of time. Things seem to be the same over there..its raining and there's a whole bunch of strikes in Bonao..SURPRISE SURPRISE. also spoke to my abuelo...he has Alzheimer but its not OD bad yet so he knows who i am and what not...still really sad and hes like dying for me and my bro to go to DR...we shall see what happens.


I feel like this is such a pointless post...but today was pretty pointless...




oh jea,so on da day of da gay parade me and Ric were on the train goin to the seaport and like he was talking about sometihing and kept saying "thats so gay" and im like shh we gonna get jumped LMAO...buttt since den i been tryin to say thats so lame or w/e soooo this weekend i saw this commercial

FIRST COMMERICAL

and was like wordd so im down with dat whole "thinkb4uspeak" movement haha and everytime i talk to people and dey say it im just like yo dont say dat though ima probaly mess up myself. oh and heres da other commercial:

SECOND COMMERCIAL

ok so now im out...remember THINK BEFORE U SPEAK.

peaceeeeeee

June 09

So at this time at night/morning wateva one can't help but think. And somehow I went from talking to Pimento about the banging burgers i made to talkin about pickles to talking about eating at the diner with Elena and Justin to how amazing june 09 was. I'll admit that not EVERYTHING was great about that month or that there are things i wish that could have happened but didnt, but when i think about that last month of HS what i remember most is that the most important thing was having fun. Not doing my school work, not being in class, just having fun. It was a last chance to just enjoy the friends you made in the past four years, last chance to do the same o same o. That one time you were stress free cause you were pretty much done with HS and had yet to start college. When you weren't sad yet about not seeing your friends or moving away because you were still with them, and could be excited for what was to come. Yeap...great month it was...sometimes i wish i could just rewind and put that month on repeat...

The candy

Year after year the young girl looked forward to the day she will be able to eat this huge delicious looking piece of candy. It was a piece that only a select few could have, her younger brother wouldn't be able to have it when she did, her parents were way too old and had already enjoyed their piece. She dreamed of the candy and counted down to when she could enjoy it. But as the days, weeks, months, and years passed the candy suddenly look like too much too handle. Like an unwanted dessert after a huge meal.Yet at the same time, she was curious as to how it tasted and how much she would like it. Now the day has come where she HAS to eat this piece of candy. So now the candy seems more of like a chore, an obligation, and this girl who is no longer young is very scared of this candy. Shes worried it will give her a stomach ache or that it contains too much sugar or not enough. But at the end of the day she knows she must taste this candy and hope that it was what she imagined as a young girl.

Uno

So I was looking at my old xanga and all the crazy shit i use to write...smh. But i like writing so i made a new blog here since i already had an account here thanks to AP Spanish.

Ill write later. haha.